I am Only Human Just Like You –
We all F*** up from time to time in life, whether it be something small or big. Addiction has caused even myself to do and say things that I now to this day regret. I am not that person anymore and find it unfair to judge someone because of their past doings when they are trying hard to be a better person. It makes no damn sense to me at all; it really doesn’t because I would want to congratulate others for their accomplishments and what they have achieved and even their forthcoming’s. Not dog on someone because their path in life was different from yours that you have no real understanding about.
I Have Feelings Too –
You may have been heartless and reckless during your addiction and are paying the price for everything that has been done and said in your past because I know I am but having other people look down on you, say things about you and judge you because of your wrongdoings in the past is just hurtful. I try not to let it bother me, but what can I say? I am still only human, and it sometimes still hurts to hear the sh*t people say about you when your not even that same person anymore but yet they continuously judge you because of it. Even though it still hurts me, I am better than to succumb to all the bullsh*t energy people put out there about me, and you are too. What matters most is the ones you love and care about, and the ones who love and care about you.
All I Know
Is that I have spent so much time and energy into my journey in recovery that I know I am a better person than I used to be! I have accomplished so much in life that I never thought I would have, and the people who judge me because they have no clue what I went through to get where I am now, and will never comprehend how much that can mean to someone in recovery. I cannot walk on water but I sometimes feel like I can when I accomplish my goals in life one by one.
I want to give a shout out –
To all recovering addicts who are staying true to themselves and not letting your past define who you are! You all are strong-minded and beautiful people no matter what anyone says.