The beginning of this year has started pretty f**cking crappy. However, it is time for me to reclaim this year back to myself. I will not allow anybody to knock me down, to let me feel like I am nothing, have me doubt my self-worth. I am a force to be reckoned with when I am determined, and when I set my mind on something. 2020 is my year, and NOBODY is taking it away from me.
I Am BEAUTIFUL
On the inside and outside…I am not perfect; I am not as beautiful as a goddess, but I am pretty enough, and I am ok with that. I am starting to love myself slowly but surely, and I will not think less of myself because of what others think. My heart knows no limit on love, and sometimes that is my downfall but I will not let that be a burden anymore.
Love Me For Who I Am
If you cannot love me for who I am, then I do not want you in my life! I am at the point where I do not want anybody in my life that feels negatively towards me or feels some type of way. I am not the same person I was before and during my addiction. I am someone you have not met before, so before anybody acts like they know me should probably think again.
I am taking my life back from lovers who hurt me and belittle me, from “friends” who have scorned me and go behind my back. From family members who say blood is thicker than water when they are just like a river that never ends. I will take my life back and make it into something beautiful for my children and myself. Sometimes we let people we love guide us in the wrong direction we allow them to treat us however they see fit, and that is also coming to an end because I deserve so much better than the sh*t I have put up with and I will no longer stand for it.
Side Note To Everyone
Life is short to allow others to hurt us and dim our shine, we are beautiful people and if they choose not to see that, then that is their loss. I know it is hard to let the negative people we love in our lives go, but our happiness and self-worth matter. Its easier said than done. I just figured this out for myself and it hurts but it will get better day by day things will start getting better. So please put yourself first and love yourself enough to let go.